good day everyone, i want you all to know that to have all your support is a great thing and thats what i need right now, the people that are closest to me to give me support because it is a cruel world out there and im already experiencing it. now before i say all that i want to say, i dont have melvins and melissa's email address, could you please leave it on my blog cause i would like to write to you guys personally, thank you.

God has a purpose for me in perth whether i like it or not, but like my dad said, if you HAVE to do something, why not like what your doing and you'll begin to enjoy it and to me, anything for GOD is a must, and i do like it, i just dont like where i have been put. i have already started to spread the gospel, i have taken my room mate who is very set in his ways but i managed to convince him to go to church and he came and he cant wait to come again, i urge you all out there, i know how some of you feel, "im content with my life, i dont need to bring anyone to church, if they want to, they will come" i used to think like that, well not really but something like it but i live in a place where i have no friends, so i took a step forward, i, in a way indirectly forced andrew to go to church and he went. that is what god wants, he wants to get sinners into thye church because as my favorite pastor said, the church is for sinners, if you're perfect, get out!!! many of you out there have a gift, and i believe god has given you that gift to influence others and they will see christ living inside you. i believe my gift is music and im going to persue it. my point is, get out of your comfort zone and ask someone to church, thats what god wants, dont just come to d.c every saturday to enjoy urself, dont be selfish, bring someone else so they can enjoy too and in the process know God, today alone andrew went to church and gave his life to JESUS, that is phenomenol, and you know how i got him there, i told him, you want some good music, some with a good beat, thats why he came, not because i said, you will hear a good sermon, of course in the process he was listening contently to the sermon but it was the music that brought him to church. and that brings me to my topic of worship in youth, it is great, yes, but i believe it can be better, the musicians in the youth have potential, i mean look at samantha, and im hoping that the two girls that also are there playing with her, yes u know who i mean girls, if u want to play, put your whole heart in it, and i can see isaac plays very good, but zack, your a sax player, not a trombone player, you have to dance, its part of your role.........i know it sounds pathetic, but take this guys, if we are not excited about worship, we cant blame the audience, we have to be jolly, we have to be a bunch of yahoo's for GOD, worship is not a moment of silence, its a time to release all you have for god, the lord wants us to worship him, just side tracking a bit, guess who i saw in person guys and was at one of his worship summits........HILLSONGS..........BIG BLACK GUY...........FROM AMERICA..........SANG KING OF MAJESTY...............the one and only ALVIN SLAUGHTER...........he was good man, the whole sermon was singing, every 5 minutes he felt like a song so he got up and sang one and all of us got to sing, it was great........anyway, as i was saying, take a look at hamilton, me and him are always having a great time but all of us have to have one, not just the both of us........we have to cant wait to get to church to worship the lord........i know i cant, i cant leave my guitar alone for 10 minutes when im studying of a night, andrew is starting to sing along too.......hahahaha, and i have gotten in trouble so many times because im playing my music during study time..............but i DONT CARE, i love the lord, and no one is stopping that........a few people have come in and said that is cool music, what is it, i say its christian  music, they say "what!?" i say yup, want to see the words............you probably dont know what im saying, but all that i am going to learn at my new church worship practises, i plan to bring it all back to GCC, melvin wants to impact the community of Kota Kinabalu, PEOPLE!!!! get excited, there are so many ways to do it, i mean we could have a gig, why not, you al have the talent capability to do it, its a matter of willingness, a matter of going out of your way for others, cause your going out there not for urself, trust me you dont get anything from anyone, you get something much better, you get god's blessing, that is the greatest thing you could ever get. just remember that you all have it much better than me, you all have each other, you're doing it all together, i have no body here to help me, but i think i can make an impact on my school, it might take me 2 years but i will do it........so if i can do it, u can, all of you can, so get involved, be someone who makes things happen, not watch things happens, "the lord delights in deligent hands" whatever you gift or talent is, use it for the glory and honour of his kingdom.........

anyway, i wont say much, oops......i've said a lot.........thank you all for ur support but sorry sam, i cant not think of you guys, my home will always be k.k..........

alright, i want to say sorry to everyone, especially melvin and melissa, you were and are right, i am a fighter, and that monday after i wrote the depressing blog, i told myself, sheesh....i am joshua, i am not changing who i am, and i am a person who will see others go down before i do, what i mean by that is i dont give up simple.......i dont care, i am going to be a great musician, no one can stop me and i will get there. so i went to the jazz teacher and said, "sir, give me five minutes of your time, i want to show you my passion for saxophone" so i played for him and he literally had his mouth wide open and said...."w.w..wwwhat happened, where did u learn all this, i said i just added a bit of inspiration to mood to it" so conclucion is that i just need to be inspired and i can play............well, i was happy about that. anyway, the truth, fine, i hate it here and i cant wait to come home.......when i come home it will be my birthday and im so happy i will be home to celebrate it with my fmaily and friends. i have a LOT of tests lately, thats why i havent had time to write to you guys, i am so sorry, please forgive me.........

i finally got into the worship team here and they call me the "sax man", thats my nick name in church, they call me that cause they dont have a saxophonist so they said they want me to be there saxophonist. one thing i dont understand, whe i say i was a worship leader in youth they all asked me how old i was and when they found out that i was 18 this year.....oops, im 18 oh, crap, im getting old, anyway, they were shocked to know that a person so young like me was a worship leader. anyway, they want me to play guitar and sax but first i need an audition, they said im 80% able to play but they still need an audition cause all the songs they play are very hard songs, even i have to say they are hard..........well of course i have to say they are hard cause im not that good yet btu anyway, i have been job hunting for the past three weeks and handed in god knows how many resumes to all the places so im really hoping someone will call soon, please pray for me guys cause i really need a job. anyway, i really wish i was joining you guys in what you are all doing...........by the way, im starting a christian fellowship group and at the moment im using music as a bribe to get them to come cause none of them are christians, anyway, im still trying my best.....'

i really thank you very much for all the comments you left melissa and mel, thank you so much, i so cant wait to come home again.........

i have a lot to talk to you guys (youth) about your worship, or should i say our worship, cause i really think we can take it to another level, not only in spirit but also in skill, face it, we play the same songs over and over again, the youth are never there enjoying it, i dont know what to do yet but im praying and praying about it cause i dont want the discovery club just to have normal worship, i want us to have extreme worship where heaven just comes down at the drop of a note, try and hear what im saying here..........anyway, ill think about it more so ill have something to share when i come back......thank you guys for everything..........talk to ya soon

hey guys, i know i havent written in a long time but i know u are all good friends and understand that i have a lot of work to do and i cant even scratch myself..........anyway, this weekend was a slightly a bit more interesting, i went out to my room mate's farm.......it so damn big and the great thing about that is that since i have my licence the father let me drive one of their four wheeled drive around and i had to help out on the farm and in addition to that i stunk like hell and got scratches on my legs..........anyway, we fed goats and sheep and we even had to act like sheep dogs to get the goats into a paddock for observation and then by feeding the goats we had to carry, of course by truck, a 3 tonne hay stack and then i had to pull it off the trailer with my smal four wheel drive.......it was cool cause it was like it was entrusted to me for the whole time i was there. anyway, at night we went fox shooting cause the foxes eat the little kids (goats) so we were not allowed to shoot cause it was a high intensity sniper but the following night i got to shoot rabbits, and for u animal lovers out there, these are not ur every day friendly bunnies, these are aggresive ones that eat the crop so i was given a chance to use a real rifle and when we spotted a rabbit they gave me the rifle and said "we have a lot of bullets cause no one gets it on their first shot" and to everyones amazement i got it on the first shot while it was moving and they said " i thought u said u have never shot a real gun before" and i said i havent, i play "counter"............HAHAHAHAHAHA..............anyway, after that we couldnt find anymore rabbits so we went home and then the next day me and andrew (my room mate) went driving and then we were away from the house i showed him my driving skills so i did 180 degree turns and i didnt know but he said only two wheels were on the ground when i turned and he asked me where did i learn that and i said well, i think im a natural..............hahahaha, just kidding, im not a cocky australian, im still a humble malaysian.............trust me, i wouldnt want to be anything else......anyway, what else did we do........hmmmmmmm.........we played on a motor bike and they said i was a maniac on wheels and they said if there was no gravity i would be on the moon by now, i was just having lots of fun on a bike, like i always do, they didnt mind, they thought it was cool and asked me to go out again when i get the chance but ill have to take a rain check on that one..........

today kan, i was kicked out of chapel which i was happy about cause i forgot to shave and i looked like a grandpa.............i usually shave all the time cause i promised i would but i havent been myself lately and i just forgot so i was asked to go back and shave.........it was funny cause after i shaved i amazed myself how young i look...........hahaha..........only 18 this year bah!!!! anyway, i have much to say anymore but i just want to say im very sorry for not blogging for so long.............ILL BE HOME IN 4 DAYS.............YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1