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Posted by: The_auzzie Original: 5/8/2004 9:47 AM Views: 67 Comments: 4 eProps: 6 Read Comments Post a Comment Back to Your Xanga Site

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Saturday, May 08, 2004

hey everybody, here i am again, im here all alone in the boarding house cause most of the people have signed out to go to their friends house but i dont have any friends here so its just me and a quite corridor........i know it sounds lame but that is the kinda of person i am nowadays, i got kicked off my jazz band because i cant play what they want me to play and my parents cant afford for me to get lessons, now im just waiting to get kicked off the celtic group for some stupid reason, probably cause i cant play guitar properly. school sucks more and more each day, i go to school, learn what i can and cant wait to get out of their, today, i got screwed around cause i had to get my guitar fixed so i had to travel an hour on a train to this place and then they said they cant fix it so i went to a place they told me which was another half an hour away, and i had to do all this by train, i got their and couldnt find the place and when i did they were closed, so i had to travel back to the place and they said they forgot to tell me that they shut early, so they said they would take it for me another day. and then i had to travel back to school all alone, i guess it gives me time alone......which i dont need. im so bored and i miss home so much that walking 50 km would be considered fun.........i hate my life right now. i want to be a musician when i grow up but no one is for it, not my parents, not my friends, not even people i dont even know.........forget it larr, i wont be one, i dont know what i want to be.......i really dont see myself being anything in life, im really just wasting my parents money here and they should see a poor investment when they see one. i had everything back home, now i have nothing. i talk to god, but sometimes it seems like he is not there, has he disregarded me......what have i done that is so bad..........i sit here wondering what all the people i care about are doing and i know they are having fun and enjoying life...........and im happy for them, but me, well, i have always been the one to suffer, so why change things now.......

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Hey.. dont give up hope just yet.. The greatest challenges in life are alwez the hardest but the one thats most worth it.. U gotta try.. =) and trust me, one day ull get there.. ;)

*Cheers

Take-The-Floor [Teshah]

Posted 5/11/2004 10:28 AM by Teshah - reply

hi josh, hope your situation has improved since you last wrote. i am also sorry to hear that your grandfather has passed away in sydney. take care, bro.

Posted 5/15/2004 1:46 PM by maldekstra - reply

Josh,u have owez been a fighter, dun give up now.there's owez a reason for everything; whatever obstacles u face now will make u stronger in the future. dun give up ur dream of being a musician, if it's meant to be, it will be realised!music's ur passion, hold on to it...t.care..

Posted 5/18/2004 1:45 AM by princes_SA - reply

Josh..
1.)life sucks once in awhile, so u can appreciate the better times..
2.)u are oredy a GREAT musician!!!
3.)U are NOT(!!!!!!!) a poor investment!!!
4.)God's owez with u, it's just that u didn't look who's beside u all these while.
5.)it's ok when u don't know what u want to be,sheesh, i can't even make up my own mind, and i'm graduating in september!!
6.)rise above the circimstances...